Can't believe that it's already the new year's eve and tomorrow is January 1st of year 2010. Gosh time flies. I swear I could still remember my last post for year 08. Oh well, there goes one year and here comes one more year. One more year in CTS, one more year to enjoy secondary school and one more year before I step into life as a young adult. I guess year 2010 would be a year that I would cherish the most. 2009 had been the best yet the worst at the same time. No matter what, I still moved on and here I am, prepared to welcome the new year. I believe what had happen in the past would be kept as memories. I cherish those sweet moments and the bad ones, they're not worth to reminisce. I just wish that this coming year, I'll be more focused because it's gonna be a hectic one. With Os coming up, I'm pretty sure it's would pass by faster than this year and suddenly it would be another new year. I don't expect much of myself but I really hope I'll do better compared to this year.

Friendship? Well, I guess it shall remain the same and I won't hope for anything more because I don't want to get hurt over and over again. Moving on....

Relationship? Nah. I shall not think of it, for now(:

This shall be my post for new year's eve. Shall update later!

Should I go countdown?

Finally after the long wait for my results, I finally got it today. First of all, I thank God for answering my prayers and yes I made it to sec 5! I'm also glad that most of my classmates are going up too! Although my grades aren't perfect but I'm thankful enough to make it through and achieve what I want. I won't write the grades that I receive here! Navin and Zachary were the top students in our school and from what I heard in the news, the top student scored 6 points! Okay, not that far from Navin and Zack who scored 8 points. I'm thankful to everyone who wished me good luck and had motivated me, assurring me that I can do it! Once again, thank you!

Tomorrow is results day. Although it's just N levels, it matters. I believe I've had my fun when I was in camp and I took the few days when I'm back home to think through. Indeed, while at camp, my mind was thinking of my results but I let all the laughters take over me. When I'm back home now, I start to think again and again and yes, I want time to go by faster. At least I won't have to feel this way. God knows how nervous I feel now and my hands get cold everytime I think about it. I guess tomorrow will decide the next step of my future.

No matter if positive or negative, I will try to accept it. I will. Although what I hope is something positive because I could never imagine how long I would take to be able to accept it completely. However, I won't blame myself because after all I am a normal human being and I do make mistakes. Whatever it is, no matter if I take a longer route or shorter one, I just hope I'll be someone successful despite how long I will maybe need to take to achieve my goals.

"Dear God, I pray to you that you grant my only wish today."

WHOO! I'm still high after camp! Opps! It's been so long since I update! Let's see, I shall update from the farewell party on the 9th December.

As usual, all of us met each other and made our way to Sentosa. There were only 4 seniors and very little people went but it's okay cause at least they remembered us! When we reached, had to cut a ribbon to symbolise the opening of the party. After that was eating, games and nothing much except all the laughters and exchange of gifts. Went to watch the 4D movie and had early dinner at Pizza Hut.

10th December:

HAPPY ONE YEAR OBSabah!

Well had last camp training before actual day. Decided to join the camp in the end cause they needed help. Jiemin said she wanted to come down but in the end she didn't and we prepare ourselves for the camp!

11th December:

The day of the camp challenge! Our patrol is called patrol 3.
Members:
Janine
Joanne
Adeline
Hwee Ling
Farhana
Jie Ling
Kai Ting/ Yi Xiu
ME
&
Mrs Fong

Arrived in school at 7.20am. Prepare our stuffs and headed to Camp Christine. First day was average because we had to pitch the tent, tie our gadgets and all the other admin stuffs. Nothing much on the first day except that we took charge of doing the flag pole and the colours. While the juniors all decided to bath, me and kt decided not to. At night, Mrs Fong came and started to chat with all of us. She felt digusted and kept using this word, "YUCKS!" Kept talking and laughing about a lot of things. How she is a B I N G O and about B****A! I guess only us who know all this!

12th December:

AMAZING RACE! As usual, we very excited about it because that's the only thing that I was looking forward to. Guider had to follow us and as such Mrs Fong followed. What's more we had to bring a lot of bread and eggs as food during the amazing race. We first went to Boon Lay, the first stop. Then we had to go to VIVO at the kids playground. There we had to solve some puzzles which we got 6 correct and search for a picture of a trefoil. After that station we went to Lucky Plaza to sell cookies! We only took around 10 minutes while the group before us took around 30 minutes. I swear that the two ladies who bought the cookies from us are very very very blessed! Next we went to the Visitors Centre, had to write on postcards and give it to tourists plus took picture with them. Somehow, the eggs we gone in the ***! Had lunch at Burger King before going to the next station at Little India. There we somehow lost our bread! :D At Little India was worst. Firstly, the bus driver lead us to the wrong bus stop and then we had to walk all the way back just to find the arcade. There, had to complete the tasks of eating the cakes and drawing hanna on tourists. Thank you to the Australian family who were willing to help us! Pardon my untidy drawing! Next station was at Compass Ville? at Seng Kang. Had to find items at Cold Storage. We were the only school who managed to find the last item, DEMI!
Next stop was Bishan @ HQ. Nothing much except searching for things and at that station we lost the much points. Went to Bishan Stadium next to RUN! After running, we had to go to Yishun, Bottle Tree Park. Again, search for things again! We thought that there was another station to go to but in the end it was the last station and we were leading when we thought we were the last few!

On the way to Camp Christine there were so much drama! But who cares! After all we were the 2ND in the national level which means the 2ND among the rest of the DIVISION! Tiring second day but it's a great fun!

13th December:

Nothing much besides kayaking and first aid. 2nd place for both events!! More jokes and gossips!

14th December:

Last day! Time to pack things up! We were lucky to have our YELLOW tent! An announcement was made that all the divisions are to meet up at the yellow tent at the WEST division to learn how to strike the tent and yes! We didn't have to strike our tent! Uncle Ghaz, uncle Salim and Hawa demonstrate using our tent! Instead we help others and we were 20 minutes in front of time to pack up! After that prize presentation, we got 3rd for gadgets! Went back to school around 1.30pm. Then a lot of things happen in school but the best part was lunch with Mrs Fong! Why?! Shall not elaborate about this but it's so FUNNY!

Overall the camp was the best that I had with the juniors and had the best time laughing about curly wurly/maggi mee, piercing/tattoo, lesbians, CSI, shortie and a lot of other things! There's too much to share but I'm getting tired! Oh yeah, what's camp without injuries and mosquito bites? I'm injured and itching everywhere again!

Results will be release in a couple more days! I'm nervous yet confident and I will accept the outcome no matter if it's negative or positive.

HAD THE BEST TIME AT CAMP CHALLENGE!

I just can't believe that the day that we've been talking about since ages is actually here. Maybe it's not for me but it's all the same. Friends graduating, leaving already. Though I'm not the one graduating, I'm really sad, I really am. I never though this day would come. My friends, sisters, bestest, all leaving. I know we can still keep in contact and we WILL be friends forever but the feeling will be different, I can't seem to describe in words but it will. I swear when I'm typing out this post that goes out to all my friends who are graduating, I swear I'm at the edge of crying. I just can't seem to understand why but I am. I just feel totally sad. I don't know what else to say but before it's too late I just want to say that I'll miss you all and I mean it. I treasure those times I've spent with you. Please forgive me if I've upset you but for all I know I will miss you all I do.

After almost a year... I finally got back the letter that I wrote when I was at OBSabah! Reading back what I wrote reminded me of the times when I was there and also remembering that after I wrote that letter, I fell asleep, maybe because of the medicine I took earlier because of my fall at Mount K. I sure miss those times and everyone who participate in it. I realised OBSabah had really changed the way I am and the change is meant in a positive way of course.

I'm planning to have an outing on the 10th of December. Either with the WHOLE OBSabah peeps or maybe just within Kinabalu. Any suggestions? I'm still clueless of what to do. But I'll get the girls to plan along at least it'll be much more fun. I really hope it'll be much more better compared to last time when we went out without planning!

Did I say that there's something wrong with my jaw/neck/ear... It hurts so badly that even now, my shoulders hurt too... I really hope nothing is wrong though. Just when I'm having fun at the chalet with the class, not full attendance, yesterday.

Well, yesterday was way beyond of what I've expected. Fun yet could be even more fun if I've had overnight. Oh well, at least I showed up at the last minute(: Was quite shock when my friends praised me on how I looked yesterday. Maybe because it was their first time looking at me like that. Thanks you guys for the praise! :D

Anyway, I'm itching all over and aching on my face. My face was like a boxer's face who got punched so badly in his last match! I hope I'll be okay! Health been deteriorating over the past one year, after I feel down at the mountain. Hope it's not the reason to why I am like this. Shoots... left with only 10 minutes to TABOO. Okay... Au Revoir.

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Officially I'm free from any exams till next year... I hope! Well had the retake of my mother tougue paper and it's so much better compared to mid year. I really hope I'll get a better grade then mid year cause I don't want to end up retaking again. So far got nothing much happening except that I went cycling last friday with, Huishan, Huda and Wan at Pasir Ris Park. It rained half way and overall was average. I'm lucky that I got over my phobia of riding the bike after the 'accident'. I really got nothing much to update about. Maybe I'm undating cause my lil sis wants me to! You know who you are! :D Hope to meet up with you soon okay sis! :D




I just don't know why. But when I saw you just now, I just felt so angry. I don't know why. I don't know what's happening. I don't want to get involved with you anymore but as days pass by I feel that I'm missing something, could it be you or just... I try to forget you but it all seems so hard. I know you're not the only one but.... I just don't know.

Setiba di persimpangan,
Langkah kita tak lagi sehaluan,
Bermula di saat itu,
Tidak sengaja irama dan lagu.

Begitu hidup ini,
Tiada yang abadi,
Yang patah tumbuh,
Yang hilang berganti.

Kau telah jauh, jauh dariku,
Tiada ruang di hati buatmu,
Namun harusku akui,
Ada ketika di minda kau menjelma kembali.

Sekali segala ada,
Ada rindu yang datang tiba-tiba,
Tak mungkin kearan sayang,
Cuma terganggu oleh perasaan.

Dear God, please give me the strength to move on. I keep telling myself it's not worth it. But why is it so hard. Give me a sign to move on.

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